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What it’s like to be a schizophrenic

You can’t fully know what it’s like to be inside of a schizophrenic mind if you’re not experiencing it, but we can take a look at some interviews, talks, videos, stories and more. Although schizophrenia can be a terrifying “disease”, many people have learnt to overcome it’s impulses, delusions and hallucinations through medication and experience. However, many commit suicide, get depressed, and life just gets harder and harder for them.

“The margins of the space were bright without illuminating anything or casting shadows, sharp and terrible. It reminded her of the way schizophrenics and people suffering migraines would describe light as assaulting and dangerous.”
― James S.A. Corey, Cibola Burn

What is Schizophrenia? 

It has been labelled as a mental disorder presenting a serious distortion in thinking and perception, manifesting a loss of contact with reality, besides hallucinations, delusions, thought disorders and more. These hallucinations may vary from seeing a white ball of light on the wall to having a serial killer in front of you. In my experience with having schizophrenic family members, they have the unfortunate luck to switch from being totally normal to being in another dimension in just a second. They might be shopping or watching the Tv and suddenly they hear a soft voice and a whisper. The voice gets louder and louder, and other voices start appearing, transmitting subliminal messages, threatens, screams or just nonsense chatter. They start seeing geometrical forms, people flying or a screen melting down. Their mind starts travelling and they just lose it. It can sometimes be one hell of a nightmare.

Anyone can suffer from schizophrenia, no matter the genre and mostly it appears during adolescence or adulthood. In some rare cases like Jani Schofield’s, schizophrenia can occur during infancy. It is not known what causes schizophrenia, but research indicates that it has to do with a combination of genetic and environmental factors, creating a state of vulnerability in the person and a predisposition to develop the disorder if there are circumstances facilitating it.

Check this video about Jani Schofield, a rare schizophrenia case:

Symptoms

· Hallucinations: These are sensory experiences that originate within the brain, causing the person to hear voices and see things that are not normally perceived by people who don’t have schizophrenia. In many cases, it is hard for a person going through schizophrenia to differentiate between reality and hallucination, however, they can sometimes recognize when are they seeing and hearing things that are not there.

· Delusions: Nightmares just keep coming. People with schizophrenia not only hallucinate but they also experience delusions, having strange ideas like feeling they are God, Jesus or a turtle inside of a human body. They might also experience false beliefs that, even if there is evidence to the contrary, they will still believe it, like believing our human body was built by worms or that trees are portals to other dimension. However, not every person suffering from schizophrenia go through the same symptoms, but in general these are similar.

· Emotional disorders: They basically enter depression, mostly in a way deeper and darker than normal people. They loose the sense and capacity to experience feelings of joy or pleasure, driving their emotional system to a black hole. Depression, lack of self-confidence or bad mood are some of the most frequent symptoms. This can also lead to a serious lack of energy and motivation, losing their enthusiasm, energy, and interest in what surrounds them. This often implies that they are unable to fulfill their obligations or lead a normal social life.

· Thought process problems: Their brain’s capacity and function to learn and store information can be diminished, so as their memory or simple things like keeping track of various things at the same time, like remembering a phone number or solving a puzzle. If a person is having a hallucination, the thought process can be seriously affected. It’s really hard to think or focus properly when hearing a hundred different voices at the same time. The emotional state will also affect the thinking process, often experiencing thoughts and desires of suicide, murder or self-inflicted pain. It’s really a nightmare.

· Self-Perception Disorder: Self-perception consists of perceiving our emotions, our personality, ideas and desires. This will ultimately form an opinion about ourselves. It is what is known as introspection. If I am a very active person, I would think that I am happy, but if on the contrary i’m in one of those days where i’m feeling lazy and with no desires of realizing activity, i would derive in the perception that it i’m sad. Often a schizophrenic has a distorted perception of self. The distinction between himself and his surroundings may be blurred.

Internet Mental Health

Take a look at this amazing video made by CNN, in which you can see Anderson Cooper running a “schizophrenia simulator”. Having the chance to slightly enter the mind of a schizophrenic, Anderson hears voices and screams and tries not ti lose his mind while he’s going through this challenge, something people with schizophrenia go through every day.

Is there a cure?

Unfortunately, there isn’t. However, the disease can go through different stages of evolution, among them the total disappearance, as well as total aggravation. Advancements in medical research have totally improved the schizophrenic mind’s life, but the intensity of it’s symptoms can still drive the person to a negative way of living, induced in depression and darkness. If medication is not correctly taken, the schizophrenic may react violently or psychotically. And if they’re being driven by hallucinations at the moment, you better take care of yourself, however, violence and aggression in schizophrenic people is not regularly seen. But since i have personally seen aggression present in some schizophrenic people, i have the chance to say they are willing to do you more harm than you think, at least at that moment.


My friend was diagnosed with Schizophrenic Psychosis when he was 15. Since then he has had many instances where he has had random impulses/urges to kill people like family and friends. He told me that if I got to hear his thoughts for a day, I’d kill myself. He told me this as he contemplated suicide. He constantly hears voices telling him to do vile things and he fears of hurting others and it drives him mad. Medication is only so effective. -From Patient’s comments

 

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